It has been nearly two weeks since my last blog and thats because quite a lot has been happening in my life. Let my start with one realization, "The end is also the beginning."I came to Italy on a search for something. Something different, something epic, something life-changing. I just realized I found all of that in one quick and unexpected moment. Four days ago my girlfriend broke up with me. That was the moment that ended something just as quickly as it began something new for me. If we had made it to the end of October, we would have been together for four years. We made it to 3 years and 11 months. Now the catch of this all, I did nothing wrong, In my opinion and hers. She gave me the classic lines of all lines, " I love you but I'm not in love with you."
OUCH! We have all either heard that or said it at least once before but damn it stings when its directed right at your heart. He reasons were at best comical. That is neither hear nor there really but what really matters is that even though we are broken up we still share a room and a bed for the next 3 months until our lease is up. Well now the fun part begins I guess. I am going to refocus on myself again and start looking for people who actually appreciate me being around.
My brother just told me something the other day, "If they aren't worth dying for then they aren't worth crying for." Well I gotta say that hit a chord with me because she killed a piece of me once before and I can't help but think that was a piece of me that I could be loving now. Life is a cruel mistress because she is warm, loving, terrifying, and confusing all at the same time. I am not sad about this as much as I thought I would be because all she is doing is making me stronger. I am absorbing the pain that life is throwing my way and will walk with my head held high because no person can break me down. I will not allow it.With that said I will be attempting to add another dimension to my blog. I will be posting one image a day from this point forward. It will be the sum of my daily experience and help me realize that there is so much beauty in the world that one narrow minded perspective is nothing that will stand in my way to happiness because after all, "Love is Everything." Truly it is.
